I wish I may I want I feel I don't know how to be all of me at once and not lose my "sanity".  I try to keep on dragging through the day to day- just to get over it, get through it.  Sometimes, I think pieces of me get lost inbetween, in the translation between Truth and just surviving.  I want to find out who I've been before (if I have been), so that I can try to figure out my relationships in this life.